Humpty Dumpty had a great fall!
This is one sentence my subconscious is playing in loop today while I juggle office work, a baby and all the chores at home. Not surprising at all since I did fall down pretty awkwardly this morning. I was taking the stairs to the basement car parking when this happened. Let's just say, it was painful and scary as I landed on my hips. The feet too weren't spared. With the weak bones and Vitamin D deficiency, it's a miracle I didn't break any bones. To say, I'm blue and in pain would not only be metaphorically but literally apt too!
At any other time, I would have forgotten all about it except maybe for the pain in the rear. But I just can't today. The reason being I was carrying my almost 9-month-old when this happened. It was a miracle I didn't fall flat on my face or else she would have gotten hurt too. I can't help but wonder what would have happened if she hadn't been strapped to me in her carrier. The various scenarios that play in my mind are anything but comforting.
Truth is, there are too many things on my mind these days and I'm often absent minded. I could be in a conversation with you one moment and phase out in the next without even consciously realizing it. Perhaps that was what caused the fall today and of course my high heels too. These shoes need to come with some kind of warning like injurious to mothers carrying infants climbing down stairs.
On a serious note, I do have too many thoughts hovering in my mind at any given moment, way more than I'm used to. Stack overflow says the Engineer in me. There is always something that needs to be done, something that needs to be ticked off the list. Still, whatever the reason, I can't let this happen again especially when I have my baby with me. But what do I do to reduce the stress, the absent-mindedness and avoid something like this in the future?
Honestly, I don't know.
Meditation is not my cup of tea. The only thing that comes close to meditation for me is listening to instrumentals while I work, instrumentals made for meditation. How cliched!
Maybe a few days off ought to do the trick then. Actually, no I don't think that would work either because I don't really get any rest at home with my little naughty baby always up to something. The only time I feel a bit relaxed in spite of the work load is at the office. Yes, strange but that's how it is. And I think every working mother would agree with me. Maybe not every working mother but most certainly would.
So, the question remains, how do I deal with the stress that comes with juggling so many roles? How do I prevent such falls in the future? Because trust me, it really hurts especially when I think about what could have happened. And this Humpty Dumpty doesn't really want any other great fall.
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