How much do you know yourself? Yes, you.
I often wonder if I really do know myself well. Actually, there are times when I feel S or my sis know me more than I actually do. They seem to be always aware of how I’m going to react or when; and on what issues too. Strangely, they also appear to know what I’m going to say. Yes, even before I do. I guess it is indeed possible for people to grasp about you more than you do yourself. But you really need to be lucky for that to happen, I feel. After all how many would take the pain to do that for you? Just a handful, probably.
I’m happy I have a few in my life who can foresee my moves. It’s great actually. But I digress. That’s not what I’m here to talk about today.
I’m here to do a writing sprint; an exercise in limited time, say 10 minutes, where I scribble down things about me, my qualities rather, that I’m not so proud of. In the process also be as honest as possible. Not for your pity or sympathy either. But why then?
Well, I want to see how it feels. Moreover, don’t you think it is easier to talk about our good qualities rather than those which clearly aren’t? It is so important to know and acknowledge the latter, especially in relationships. A rapport based on the knowledge of short comings, those thorny truths, is one with greater life expectancy than the one confined to roses. So, maybe I just want to see if you come back to read my posts after finding out some ugly truths about me here today. Ready?
So, here goes.
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· I have a very volatile temper. When completely under its influence, I’ve done and said things I’m not proud of.
· I try not to but, more often than not, I end up judging people.
· I see and anticipate the worst in people. Sometimes, I don’t even give them second chances.
· I can lie without batting an eyelid, which is great at times but not so much at others.
· I want to be the center of attention always. Not such a nice trait I hear.
· I don’t believe in forgiveness. Never worked for me, I’ve tried it once or twice.
· I don’t like being criticized at all.
· I hate it when people don’t agree with what I have to say. Yes, I believe in tolerance but easier said than done right?
· I dislike people who sit on the fence when it comes to women’s issues. There’s no limit to my dislike for them.
· I’m the resentful employee who hates most things about her employer.
· I’m very impatient, to the point of annoying people actually. I want everything to be done here and now. I wonder how my team tolerates me.
· I want everything to be as per my whims and fancies.
· I have very strong opinions and am not easily swayed. Even when I know I’m wrong, I rarely admit it.
Well, that’s all I could think of in 10 minutes.
How do I feel?
Considerably light actually. One because I don’t mind sharing these facts about myself at all. Two, it feels good to be standing on such solid ground, mentally and emotionally, where talking about my own negatives doesn’t hurt. And lastly, you ought to know these things about me if you ever want to be my BFF, don’t you?
Now, this list is not for you to pity me but maybe you can share a thing or two about you too? We all have our so called ‘dark sides’ and I feel it’s good to acknowledge it as long as we don’t let it take over completely.
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Linking this to One Word Blog Link Up hosted by Lisa of The Golden Spoons & Janine of Confessions of a Mommyaholic. This week, the word prompt choices were Happy & Pity. I kind of used both!