There was a time when just the mere mention of it was
enough to send the excitement chain scurrying. The butterflies in the stomach,
the anticipation and apprehension all muddled together, so hard to make one out
from the other. Honestly those were such special days; so very fresh still in
my heart. It all began around those mischievous teenage years. Cupid and
crushes suddenly assumed paramount importance. It could have been due to the
fairy tales or plain old hormones, who knows? What I do know is that Valentine’s
Day emerged out of nowhere to suddenly capture my fancy big time. And the weather,
how can I forget the weather which used to be such a tease even then? Pleasantly
chilly almost hugging spring, yes that made it even more magical. Oh
the things I did!
I remember our school reopening
after the long winter vacations around Valentine’s Day, the valentine week to
be precise. During those days I had my fair share of crushes from those silly
boys’ schools in town. Of-course, the
crush changed almost every year, nevertheless it was so much fun. Those
were the days when stolen glances were priceless. In fact, even passing by your
crush on the street on Valentine’s Day was a celebration on its own. And when
school gave way to college, the matter intensified further. Waiting for
proposals, dropping hints to finally spending the day watching a romantic flick
in the hostel with friends, things changed but the allure persisted.
"After all these years together I also know what reply to expect from him; either the characteristic ‘hmmmm’ or ‘too’ against a love you from my end."
And then in the year 2007, I
celebrated my first Valentine’s Day with S. The gifts followed by a lunch and
movie date; I still remember how thrilled I was at the end of the day. Little
did I know then that this boy would be the man in my life? And now 8 years
later, another Valentine’s Day is around the corner. Such a long time has
passed and yet it seems just like yesterday. So much has changed and yet so
much hasn't. And today he is still my crush even though in all technicalities
he’s also the husband now.
So if I have to propose to him again after all these
years I think I’d do it the same way, the very way it all happened the first
SMS. Yes, I’ll just send him one saying a few special words. Of-course, after
all these years together I also know what reply to expect from him; either the characteristic
‘hmmmm’ or ‘too’ against a love you from my end. But then that’s the S I know.
I wouldn't have it any other way. And then we’ll just be lazy together. He’ll
play Frontline Commando on his iPhone while I’ll
read a book with the television playing in the background. Talking to each
other from time to time we’ll suddenly realize that we are hungry and rush to
order food in a jiffy. Yes, that’s how I’ll do it, in our very own lazy way,
over and over again. I know it’s weird and unconventional, but it’s the togetherness
that matters more to me now more than anything else. It’s our kind of zany, you
From the silly girl with magical
notions of love to a grown up fool, still a staunch believer in love but with
saner ideas perhaps, I have changed a lot over the years. And today Valentine’s Day
for me is just being
with S, having him around and going about our lives together.
And he knows that very well and I take comfort in the fact
that he does.
So folks a happy Valentine’s Day in advance from me to
you and yours. Stay blessed and stay loved!